20101226

When it comes to you

I'm afraid I'll walk away only to realise where I was is where I'm meant to be.

Everyday, everyday there's something wrong. Another problem, another situation. And everyday I'm falling behind in solving them. So they build up. All the problems, all that's wrong, they build up and they bury me until I can't get out from under.
It's not something that slowly creeps onto you. It's not as if, it starts at your toes, and sneaks up slowly to the rest of your body until, before you know it, it's taken over all of you. No, it's not like that at all. It hits you, hard, fast, unexpectedly. Overwhelms you before you've got time to set up your defences so you're left out in the open, vulnerable. You're true colours showing, emotions burning raw.
If she's hurting you'll see it. You'll see it in her eyes, her clenched fists. You'll see it in her fake smile, her distant glances. You'll see it in every 'I'm fine.' Every 'I'm just a bit tired.' You'll see it if you're looking because if there's one emotion you can't hide, it's sadness.
'I can't wait to hate you,
Make you pain like I do,
Still can't shake you off,
I can't wait to break through.'

20101217

But here was I right from the start

I thought I was okay but then you asked me 'Is everything alright' and suddenly I didn't know anymore. Maybe everything isn't alright. Maybe I was never okay.
She couldn't remember anymore. Not the way you smell in the mornings, or the warmth of your hugs. She couldn't remember how her hands fit perfectly in yours or the feel of your skin. It frightened her.




Then you came along and suddenly, I couldn't stand being alone. You came along and I didn't like falling asleep without hearing your voice. You came along and all of a sudden being just friends wasn't enough. Because you came along and you ruined everything.
Don't be so intent on finding someone that's perfect for everyone and miss the person that's perfect for you.
'I'd rather be your friend,
Than your nothing at all,
That's why I can't tell you,
How I feel."

20101212

Full music video


Hope you guys enjoy it! So altogether we had 3 shoots all done in 2 different days altogether. Was really good fun :)

20101205

You must have missed it, you always do.

She's been forcing herself to fight, for so long, long after there was any reason to fight. But she can't stop, fighting for him was all she's ever known.
More than anything, I felt like a fool. Who was I to think that you'll always be there? It felt like I had opened a door and walked out, expecting to find myself in the midst of something wonderful just to find that I had opened the door and stranded myself in the middle of the ocean.


It's hard for me to wake up with nothing when I've always been so used to waking up and seeing my everything lying right beside me.
"In a world full of wrong,
You're the thing that's right,
Finally made it,
Through the lonely,
To the other side."