20100830

Love in slow motion, take your time


She thought she was fine, really fine. She lived through her days and you never crossed her mind not even once, she did her own thing, even the things you used to do with her. She finally reconnected with forgotten friends, and even met new people. She was happy. Until she heard your voice again. And she realised, she never was fine, ever.
I am not lost. I'm just finding my way.
If it still hurts, if you still doubt, if the thought still crosses your mind, if you still miss it, if you still feel it, if it still feels too empty, if nights are too long, if sleep never comes, if the pain is still raw then maybe, just maybe you're still in love.

Stop contemplating on what you've lost. Start appreciating what you have.
"Thinking all you need is there,
Building faith on love and words,
Empty promises will wear,
I know."

20100816

Better than he can


You know when you're feeling really bad? As in you're feeling every single negative emotion ever possible. And they follow one another, like a tag team, and slowly they begin to control you. They knock you to the floors and weigh heavy on your chess until they take over every single bone in your body. They tell you you're ugly, worthless, stupid and you believe every word they say.

I can't be everything you want me to be. But I can be everything that you'll ever need.

Is it better to let go too early, and live with the regret that you let the opportunity slide or will it be better to hold on too long and be the last to know that it was over.

Never push away anyone on your way up. They're the ones that will catch you on your way down.

"And every one's running in circles,
With no where to go,
And there's no one to call,
Because the heroes have already flown."

20100807

I'm feeling lonelier than before


Sometimes it's not all about making the best choices. It's about making the right ones.
We complain that what we want is always out of our reach. We need to realise that the things we need are always right there for us.
After a while, you start putting up boundaries. And never would you dare to cross them. But they aren't there to keep people out. They're there to keep you in until someone breaks in to show you a way out.

We spend our time we should be sleeping, awake, worrying about tomorrows and thinking over our problems. And then we spend all our days awake, dreaming of great worlds and grand ideas.
"Love is not a place,
To come and go as we please,
It's a house we enter in,
Then commit to never leave."