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Cause you're going to find love, in someone new.


It feels as if I really have ruined everything, everything that was and everything that could have been. Not through the things I've said or done. But through the things I wanted so badly to say, the things I so badly wanted to do but never did.



I told you I didn't need you here. I told you to leave, and I told you that leaving you was the best thing I have ever done. But the truth is, I still get a shiver when I hear your name, my eyes still wonder to you when you're around. But the worst thing of all, is that when I found out that, you now belong with her and that when I compare myself to her, she's so much better than me.


I wanted so badly for you to chase after me

What's worst. Knowing what you need to say but never having the opportunity. Or having the perfect chance but not knowing what the fuck you're meant to be saying.


"I don't want tell you that I long to see your face,
I'm scared it might scare you away,
And I don't want to tell you that sometimes I think of you and smile,
Cause time with you is time enough for now"

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The best part of falling in love, is slowly finding out bad habits of your partner and totally and utterly loving it. It's the part where you find out they aren't really perfect, but all their flaws are absolutely perfect for you.

"Everyone is trying to accomplish something big, not realizing that life is made up of little things.- Frank A. Clark"

We all have the same hopes and dreams. We all want to be great, we all dream of the world kneeling at our feets and our heads up in the sky. But what sets us apart, is that some of us, refuse to let these dreams die, no, we nurture and raise these dreams into realities, while others believe that they can't turn these dreams to realities and let them die away.


She'll never be the same as she was before. You broke her and now she can't feel anything. You told her that love, is just a silly game you play but sometimes you lose. But to her, it isn't just that. Your other girls wanted diamond rings, they wanted everything. But to her, you ARE her everything. So why can't you see, that you belong with her.

"And at last all the pictures have been burned,
And all the past is just a lesson that we learned,
I won't forget,
Please don't forget,
About us."

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But baby you don't have a clue.


I hate the way, we will aways seem to fight about the trivial matters, things that don't result to anything. You scream at me, I shout at you. Then, you start telling me about your point of things instead of just admitting I'm right to end it all. I hate the way I then realise, goddamn, I was wrong indeed and I just shuttup and not say a thing but refuse to admit defeat. But then I love it, when, even though you know you were right, you'd apologise to me cause you know exactly how stubborn I can be. I love the way you know exactly how to end the fight, just so we can get ready for the next.


HER: I'm sorry, I already said yes to him.
HIM: Who would you rather be with me or him.
HER: You.
HIM: Why are you with him then
HER: Cause you were too late.
HIM: But if you love me it shouldn't have mattered, you should've waited. Why didn't you wait for me.
HER: Because it seemed like you never gave a damn and it seemed like you would never make a move and it seemed like you were pushing me away al the time. And really, all I need, is for someone to show me that they cared. All I wanted, is for someone to be afraid of losing me. But you're not.




Cause I refused to let it get to me. I refused to let my emotions show and I refused to wear my heart on my sleeve. I didn't want the world to know what was going on in my mind, I didn't want to be read like a book. So I kept it inside, bottled it up, hid it away. Until I met you. You made me escape my world and enter reality. But then like that you were gone and you left me all alone. I don't mind how the rest of the world sees me. I just want you to know who I am.

"Standing by and waiting at your backdoor
All this time how could you not know?
Baby you belong with me"